I've just wrapped up my third weekend of training to become a yoga teacher, and for the first time, I'm feeling sure I made the right decision. Weekend One had so much fear for me. Like, the "can I still change my mind and take it back" kind of fear. Weekend Two was better, but still along the lines of "hmmm, I don't know about this."
Weekend Three, it was ON. The practices felt great. The lectures were so interesting. The posture analyses, the adjustments, the breathing, everything...even the chanting. Chanting! Our instructor has such a beautiful voice--never have I wanted to take a chanting class before, and now I can't get enough. I didn't even mind giving up my entire weekend for this.
Mind you, none of this is to say that I'm especially good at yoga. In the interest of being perfectly upfront: I'm not. Let's just say it. It's scary. I can't even do a headstand yet--can you imagine a yoga teacher who can't do a headstand? One of the first things I've been getting asked recently is - "oh, so you must be really great at yoga then, right?" Nope. All I've done is dive in and hope/trust that it's all going to work out. Because, you know? Things pretty much always do. We've all done hard things before. We've all been through tough times. And didn't they all work out, eventually? So I feel certain that this will, too.
I'm loving the group of women I study with. We're all different in so many ways--different ages, nationalities, family statuses, backgrounds, etc. But we've all made this big commitment together, and that's a pretty amazing thing to have in common.
The overall theme this weekend was to analyze the seated postures from the final exam we'll all need to teach by the end of July. It's a lot of work. Do you know how to teach a transition from Marichyasana A into C? Or what a good modification for Paschimottanasana might be? Ever heard about how prana travels down the nadis and how you can balance them through kriyas? Yeah, I hadn't either. I have lots and lots and lots of notes that are jumbling around in my memory, fighting for space right now.
At the end of the weekend, last thing on Sunday, we did a really lovely exercise to seal the practice. This is going to sound weird, but hear me out: sit back to back with a partner, both of you cross-legged on the floor. Close your eyes. Now both of you lean to your right side (your respective right sides--not mirror image). Lie back, so that your head and upper back are resting on your partner's left light. Link your left arm with your partner's. Relax. Breathe. Believe me, it feels wonderful.
Weekend Four, we are coming for you. Namaste.