It's early morning on November 9th, 2016.
Less than 1 hour ago, Donald Trump was officially declared the President-elect of the United States. As most of my friends will know, I was an enthusiastic Hillary Clinton supporter and proudly voted for her back in October.
As with many other Americans right now, my thoughts and emotions are pretty raw at this exact moment. And many others - those with greater followings, better political understanding, and superior writing talent - will write about this moment, and about their feelings at this point in history, much better than I ever could.
There's nothing substantive that I can add to the dialogue. When I started this blog, I just wanted to write about little Happy Moments to help me out when I felt sad. To find the good in times when things felt bad.
So, truly, what can you say when bad wins? When you want to leave behind a future where it's not ok to bully, to demean, to mock ... and bad wins? When you hope to one day raise children who will be good people and treat others the way they'd like to be treated, in spite of their differences ... and bad wins? When education, preparation, kindness, and humanity aren't enough ... and bad wins? When you live in a world where a majority of your countrymen would prefer to overlook common decency because they feel slighted in some way? What more is there to say?
There's a hole in my heart and a hole in my stomach, and I just don't know what to say right now. Bad came calling, and America said yes. That's kind of all there is to it.
So my Happy Moment is this: I am proud of how I voted. I am proud that no matter what happens - and I do hope things won't be nearly as horrifying as many of us fear right now - I will one day be able to look my hypothetical future children in the eye and tell them, "I said no."