I've been listening to a podcast on and off recently called The Lavendaire Lifestyle. It's run by Aileen Xu, who is 25, and who I am incredibly impressed by.
I'm not sure I'm actually in the demographic for this podcast. It's aimed at millennials, and while I guess I technically am one based on my age (just barely), I definitely think it aims for an audience something like 10 years younger than I am.
But I discovered Aileen through her YouTube channel (also called Lavendaire) some time ago, and the podcast is an extension of what I admire about her: she just kind of goes for it. She makes videos. She writes music. She records. She's working on a book. And she does all of these things at a young age, and she does them without really knowing what she's doing in the beginning.
There are many, many other people out there - many of them even younger - who do this too, obviously. Creativity and self-belief and a general courage are available to anyone who just tries, even if not every attempt succeeds perfectly. But this is something that I, me, myself, personally have struggled with for years. How to go from dreaming of things to actually achieving them.
So this morning's podcast episode - as I walked to work - felt particularly relevant. It was episode 10, 'Fake It Til You Make It.' It was just full of wisdom, and full of moments where I thought excitedly to myself, "I need to write that down!"
Every artist was first an amateur.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
"You can start anywhere and still be able to get up there someday." "Fake that confidence until it becomes real." "Have the mindset that everything is 'figure-outtable.'"
"Do you ever catch yourself being like, 'oh, but, I don't know how to do that.'?" (Yes, constantly.) "And then you let that stop you from moving forward?" (All the time. Get out of my head.) "So don't be that person! That's really what separates the dreamers from the achievers." "Even if you're scared, or you don't feel like you're ready, just do it! Just show up!"
"Repeat after me: 'I've got this. I will fake it til I make it.' And before you know it, you'll have made it."
That's a pretty special message that I've been needing to hear ... and that I now need to keep banging myself over the head with. I feel like I am truly at a crossroads these days, and it's time to stop turning in a big circle and walk down the road. Because there's something at the end of it. There has to be.